| An ode to Music and a thought on All hollows Eve |
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Tuesday 17th October 2006
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Music is so powerful.
I love when i'm walking to class or driving around and a song comes on that so perfectly describes my feelings at that time. It can be a song from twenty years ago or a brand new release, it doesn't matter. Sometimes music just works. It is exactly how you feel, exactly what you're thinking, and exactly who you are. It feels like the lyrics were written just for you. That feeling never fails to amuse me. A can feel the smirk tugging at the edge of my lip or the pain sinking into the very depths of my soul. It just completes me in a way no person or object can. Music just is.
Today that song is Why Can't I by Liz Phair.
Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too
all it is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful
Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my heads spinning
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
I'd love for this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
On another note, I think I have an idea for Halloween. I think I want to be Tifa from Final Fantasy. I wasthinking about a kingdom hearts character but Tifa is more kick ass in her Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children outfit. We shall see. What do you guys think?
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Sunday 24th September 2006
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Or is the world spinning while I stand still?
Jesse and I are trying to get past the initial so crazy about each other the rest of the world fades away stage. Not that that isn't one of the best parts of a relationship, it's just that we know school has to have a big hand in our relationship. We HAVE to stay focused so we can graduate in december, thank God he is in the same place I am when it comes to that.
On that note, I have to say that Jesse is pretty bad ass. A few days ago we were talking about Batman and the Justice League and he was filling me in on some of the new things going on in the newer comics. I was intrugued and told him I couldn't wait to buy some new comics and get caught up on my Batman knowledge. So, the next day he went into Lufkin to hang out with some friends and when he came back he brought me the best present ever. The two latest Batman comics and the latest Justice League! He absolutely made my day. It really proves that it's the small things that count.
Last night I met his friends for the first time and I had a blast. We played Scattagories and Scrabble and drank wine and just hung out. It was nice. The way I hoped it would be. I can't wait to have a my friends versus his friends game night, that should be fun.
Okay, I am off to do some homework and then Jesse and I are going to sit outside and write. It's such a beautiful evening and I can't imagine anything more perfect.
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| It's interesting... |
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Monday 18th September 2006
@ 8:08pm
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the way fate deals you a hard blow just as the game starts. But, if you can make it past the rough spots and come out on the other side with your game piece intact then it's meant to be. If not, then it's not. End of story.
So, I guess I will keep on playing and hope that I end up in first or second place at the end of the game. If not, at least I can say I didn't lay my cards down and give up.
I know I used some really mixed metaphors, it seems that I can't seem to focus long enough to decide if my life is a game of cards or a board game…Perhaps it’s chess.
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| Huzzah! |
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Sunday 17th September 2006
@ 9:05pm
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I have a boyfriend. A pretty darn saweet boyfriend at that! :) We just got done with a photoshoot for one of his photography projects, it was a lot of fun. Well, until it got near dusk and I had to tell him to not freak out because we would get it done. hehe But, he's good people. AND he wants to have a mixed friends Scrabble/Charades night. So I will be calling on you, my friends, to help me kick his friends butts. He says they are REALLY good, but we are actors and the such so f that.
LOST starts soon! Jesse and I are both pretty darn friggin excited. We watched most of the extra features on one disk last night before starting the first season of the Sopranos, his other favorite show. It's not bad, I actually really like it so far. It's not LOST, but its good in its own right.
Okay, I am going to study, more later.
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Thursday 14th September 2006
@ 8:10pm
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Tired but perfect. That is what my life has become as of late. Things seem to be going really well, if I can stay organized and keep things going this way then this semester should be smantastic. (Which is the new word I made up last night, along with Spamboozle. Start using them, I think they could make it big. hehe)
I met someone very cool. I will leave it at that for now and see what happens in the future.
I get to see Gato Verde tonight, which makes my heart smile. And I don't have class until 1. AND I have a date. So, perfection. :)
More Later Folks.
Heather
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| LOST |
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Wednesday 6th September 2006
@ 12:11am
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Today I bought season 2 of Lost, I am already half way through and loving every second. If any of you LOST fans want to have a LOST night, it is so on now! :)
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| Austin Hebert Sighting |
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Tuesday 29th August 2006
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So I am sitting in I-Hop at 4am two nights ago with my roommate Claire and our friend T-Rod. We had just ordered and we were eagerly awaiting the arrival of our food. As I stared at the waitress wishing that she would hurry up and deliver our order to the cooks and not mingle with the other college kids three tables down I suddenly saw a horrific sight. Austin Hebert striding my way. A million thoughts passed through my mind, should I smile and welcome him to our table? Should I hide? What should I do? Thankfully, I need not have wondered, he passed our table with no problem and headed to the bathroom. I breathed a sigh of relief followed by a tilt of my clueless head. What was Hebert doing here? Didn't he leave a year or two ago for SMU? Didn't he leave it all behind? Did he really still have crazy frat friends here to visit?
In two seconds he was making his way past me again without a single blink of recognition and that was that. But I couldn't help but contemplate why someone who didn't fit in enough to find it worth staying would visit two years after the fact. Hmm...the things one ponders late at night when they can't sleep.
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| Hugh, are you stalking me? |
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Friday 25th August 2006
@ 6:54pm
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Hugh Laurie is taking over my world right now. I can't stop watching House reruns, I just found a dvd of Hugh Laurie comedy from back in the day, and he is currently on the Actors Studio. It's Hugh Laurie day.
It's so wierd to hear Hugh Laurie speak in his natural british accent. I am so used to his rude american way of talking on House that I just can't seem to focus when listening to him speak in his proper english tongue.
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| S.O.S. because of Y.O.U. *le sigh* |
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Friday 28th July 2006
@ 2:41pm
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These lyrics, while cheesy and far too sexual for my actual emotions, totally sum up what I feel right now. hehe Just thought I would share. hehehe Ya know what i'm saying Tori? hehehe Oh how I love you my dear!
"S.O.S. please someone help me. Its not healthy for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard, I can't take it see it don't feel right
This time please someone come and rescue me
Cause you on my mind got me losing it
I'm lost you got me lookin for the rest of me (just testing me) but still I'm losing it
Just your presence and I second guess my insanity
Yes its a lesson and its based on my vanity
My tummy's up in knots soon as I see you I get so hot
Common sense is out the door can't seem to find a lot
Take me (uh huh) you know inside you feel it right
Take me I'ma put desire in your arms tonight
I'm out with you, ya got me head over heels
Boy you got me hanging on by the way you make me feel"
Oh life is so great!
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| It's Thursday! |
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Thursday 27th July 2006
@ 12:36pm
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And nothing, and I do mean nothing, can stop the intense joy I feel. Have you ever found yourself walking in the rain from one class (or place) to another and suddenly you just want to throw out your arms and laugh, spin around perhaps letting the rain fall on your face and clothes like a flood. Water has always had a power over me, I guess its that whole washing your sins away thing, but I love it. It doesn't matter if it's the waves in Galveston or a light rain here in Nac, I feel refreshed and alive. The whole world could stop spinning today and I would continue to run around in the rain like a child with my IPod blaring Natalie Imbragula's Torn and my heart in joy mode.
It's Thursday, which means we are past the hump. It's Thursday which means I get to see my professors again. It's Thursday which means drinks for Heather. It's Thursday which means Holocaust talk. It's Thursday which means tomorrow I might get to see Charlotte and I might stop by and see Dr. Guidry. It's Thursday which means finding out who got cut on So You Think You Can Dance. It's Thursday which means it is one week and 4 days until I turn 24. It's Thursday which means life is good and I am happy.
Hurrah for Thursday!!!!
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| I found a home within the home... |
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Thursday 20th July 2006
@ 11:56pm
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I love school! Love love love love it! This summer has been full of insightful English professors, new ideas, great books, deep thought, an African (from Ghana) teacher for my poli sci who actually makes me laugh, and a fantastic professor who has made me look at the Holocaust through different eyes. I couldn't ask for more.
Today after class one of my fantasmic teachers invited us (us being his small class of WWII Holocaust Literature) to go out with he and some other professors to Flashback after class. I wasn't sure at first, I really dig these professors but I am not used to getting close with any professor except for Rick. I try my hardest to keep things on a professional teacher to student level, as hard as that may be when we are really not all that far apart in age anymore. Well, a bit, but not too much. Regardless, I was wary. But Tori talked me into it and boy am I glad she did. I had a BLAST!
I have never felt so into a group of people, sure I felt young but that was momentary, this was followed by a sense of acceptance and admiration. These professors are doing with their life what I hope to do, teaching and loving it. They talk about literature in a way that pushes me to be and do more. It was amazing to have three of my favorite professors at one table, laughing and talking and drinking and...I can't even put into words the emotions. Joy, camaraderie, comfort. If Rick and Dr. Guidry had been at that table it would have been the ideal professor table.
So, my Thursday is set in stone. Every Thursday after class I am heading to Flashbacks to get tipsy and talk literature and laugh. What a perfect way to end the week.
It's always so fulfilling when you find what you were looking for and realize just how close it was all along.
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| Bliss and Beauty |
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Monday 3rd July 2006
@ 4:54pm
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This weekend was absolutely lovely. Natalie looked like a dream in her wedding gown, beautiful and full of joy. She and Zach were glowing with love. I took a ton of pictures which I will post the second they get back from being developed. I have some great ones of Guy dancing with Grandma, Nat and Zach raised up on the chairs, Sonia looking lovely in her bridesmaid gown, Jen and I happy to be there, and lots of Jewish dancing and festivities. I love Jewish weddings. But I love Nat,Sonia, and Zach more. Oh and Nat and Sonia have the coolest brothers in the world. hehe Joey is one rocking dancer and all the Lerner boys are not only cool but handsome. :) Good families always make me happy.
Galveston is fantastic, I spent yesterday in the waves with rain just lightly falling, it felt somehow therapeutic. I met a nice guy named Erik who taught me how to boogey board and saved my glasses from the peril of the road. Let me explain, as I ran across to the street to my hotel from the beach my glasses, which were on my shirt, fell off and onto the busy street. I didn't notice until five minutes later as we reached the hotel. We ran back to the intersection and erik saw my glasses in the middle of the road, he dropped his board and ran out into the road, waving his hands and yelling to stop traffic. He succeeded, but not before four or more cars ran over them. :( Somehow by the miracle of God, they survived. He bent them back and put the lens back in and I am currently wearing them, slanted but clear and working. I will have to get new ones when i get back to dallas but, for these few days it will be okay. Life is good and my glasses didn't die. hehe
My mom and I watched failure to launch this weekend at the hotel, good movie. I do love matthew macanaghy (no idea how to spell his name) and sarah jessica parker.
I am leaving after my finals on wednesday and coming back to D-town for some more much needed vacation time before my next session starts up. So hopefully I will be out and about to party like it's 2006...wait, it is, hehe.
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| Spoiled? |
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Thursday 29th June 2006
@ 9:46pm
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Does it have to be my own stuff? Or does this include my parents stuff that I use too? hehe Well, I guess X are my stuff and x is for my use through family.
I guess I am a little spoiled. Thank you mom and dad.
(X) your own cell phone
(X) a television in your bedroom
(X) an iPod
(x) a photo printer
() your own phone line
(x) TiVo or a generic digital video recorder
(X) high-speed internet access
() a surround sound system in bedroom
(X) DVD player in bedroom
(X) at least a hundred DVDs
(X) a childfree bathroom
() your own in-house office
(x) a pool
() a guest house
(x) a game room
(X) a queen-size bed or larger
() a stocked bar
(X) a working dishwasher
(x) an icemaker
(X) a working washer and dryer
(X) more than 20 pairs of shoes
(X) at least ten things from a designer store
() expensive sunglasses
() framed original art or sculpture
() *better-than-Egyptian-cotton* sheets or towels
(X) a multi-speed bike
() a gym membership
() large exercise equipment at home
() your own set of golf clubs
(x) a pool table
() a tennis court
(X) local access to a lake, large pond, or the sea
() your own pair of skis
() enough camping gear for a weekend trip in an isolated area
(x) a boat
(x) a jet ski
() a neighborhood committee membership
() a beach house or a vacation house/cabin
(x) wealthy family members
(x) two or more family cars
(x) a walk-in closet or pantry
(x) a yard
() a hammock
() a personal trainer
(X) good credit
() expensive jewelry
() a designer bag that required being on a waiting list to get
(X) at least $100 cash in your possession right now
() more than two credit cards bearing your name
() a stock portfolio
(X) passport
() a horse
() a trust fund
(X) private medical insurance
(X) a college degree, and no outstanding student loans---Or I will here in a few months.
Do you:
() shop for non-needed items for yourself (like clothes, jewelry, electronics) at least once a week
() do your regular grocery shopping at high-end or specialty stores
(x) pay someone else to clean your house, do dishes, or launder your clothes
() go on weekend mini-vacations
() send dinners back with every flaw
(X) wear perfume or cologne
() regularly get your hair styled or nails done in a salon
() have a job but don't need the money OR
() stay at home with little financial sacrifice
() pay someone else to cook your meals
() pay someone else to watch your children or walk your dogs
() regularly pay someone else to drive you
() expect a gift after you fight with your partner
Are/have you:
() an only child
() married/partnered to a wealthy person
() baffled/surprised when you don't get your way
(X) been on a cruise
(X) traveled out of the country
(X) met a celebrity
(X) been to the Caribbean
() been to Europe
(X) been to Hawaii
(X) been to New York
() eaten at the space needle in Seattle
() been to the Mall of America
() been on the Eiffel tower in Paris
(X) been on the Statue of Liberty in New York
() moved more than three times because you wanted to
() dined with local political figures
(X) been to both the Atlantic coast and the Pacific coast
Did you:
() go to another country for your honeymoon
() "hire" a "professional" photographer for your wedding or party
(X) take riding or swimming lessons as a child
(X) have a Sweet 16 birthday party thrown for you
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Wednesday 28th June 2006
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disappointment. The idea that somebody is really something great and that they may be someone you can potentially have a friendship or relationship with and then the realization that they are not at all who you thought or wanted them to be. Or worse yet, they are what you thought or wanted them to be but they don’t want to let you close enough to experience them. It always blows my mind when you meet someone you click with, be it in a romantic way or otherwise, and everything seems so right and then kablamo. How can people be so cool and intelligent and interesting and yet so heartless? I hate leaving doors open not knowing if they should be closed or left unlocked. I like a sense of control in life, something I am working on trust me, but regardless I still can’t handle not knowing the answers to all the questions.
My mind always strays back to the last time I saw Greer, a creepy boyfriend three years or so back. He was not right for me, I knew that from the get go. But about the time I realized it was time to tell him that he disappeared. Went to Austin for the weekend and never came home. He called, once, for a few minutes to say he would be home by the end of the week. He never came home. He did, however, take my playstation games, two nightgowns, a bra, and my copy of Frida with him. They never came home either. He did eventually show back up, but that's a whole other story in the form of stalking and scary things like that.
Regardless, ever since that moment in time I cannot handle the unknown. Perhaps it is my realization that I am still technically in a relationship with a man who might or might not be alive, or my need to end all things on a positive note, or my desire to keep friends around who I really click with and who get me as I get them. But, I need that sense of closure for my own fulfillment and when it doesn't come, well, that is the worse feeling possible.
On a brighter note, I do feel good this week. I have spent the last few afternoons on a swing in the park with Harry Potter. Thanks Grace for letting me borrow it, I finally got around to reading it and I must say I will be asking to borrow the next one soon. I LOVE IT!!! Welp folks, I am off to my swing. Have a great afternoon and enjoy this beautiful sun!
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| It's true, I need more Stevie time in my life! hehe |
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Wednesday 28th June 2006
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Stevie answered these for me...hehe Best ever.
Questions:
If you comment on this post:
1. i'll respond with something random about you
2. i'll challenge you to try something
3. i'll pick a color that i associate with you
4. i'll tell you something i like about you
5. i'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. i'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. i'll ask you something ive always wanted to ask you
8. if i do this for you, you must post this on yours (though most of you probably already have.)
Answers:
1. Poke bitch
2. Try seeing me more often.
3. Yellow... boat?
4. Very rarely do our conversations end on anything but a happy note.
5. Auditioning for your show was one of the most fun auditions ever.
6. Either from Oliver and Company or Lady and the Tramp, but the dog with long brown hair...
7. Who would win in a fight between Dirk Nowitzki and Greg Garcia?
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| Cool Fact of the Day |
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Thursday 22nd June 2006
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The only US player to score a point in the World Cup this year was Clint Dempsey of Nacogdoches Texas. Sweet, no?
We rule.
Even if we did lose to Ghana this morning. No matter, we made it that far.
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Wednesday 21st June 2006
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Take the quiz:
What Song Will They Play At Your Funeral? ((PIX!!))
She's Always A Woman by Billy Joel
You are full of contradictions and people may not always understand you, or your actions, but your heart is in the right place. And you earn a lot of love and respect wherever you go, even though you may not let yourself admit it. This was written during Billy Joel's peak when he was married to Christie Brinkley, just like all of his best songs. And just like their marriage, you're abscence will leave a big void.
Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!
I have a huge paper to write and I cant focus worth shit. I hate it when it gets like this here. I am so glad I get to see Charlotte tomorrow, life is always better after our appointments. Thank God for good counslers.
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Tuesday 20th June 2006
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Damn it. Damn it. Damn it. How can my heart feel this sad over a game? I really wanted them to win. REALLY.. I can only imagine how David feels. He is going to be a mess. I still have a paper to write and I feel like shit now. Fucking heat.
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| Okay Mav fans... |
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Tuesday 20th June 2006
@ 7:43pm
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What do you think is in the bowl in the Heat's locker room?
I think it's Shaq's brain. I knew it was missing. No wonder he doesn't see it in the middle of the locker room.
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